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Jack hadn't fought with Sam very often and while he thought they were probably on good terms again, this was the longest they'd gone without you know since they'd finally, officially hooked up.

Maybe that was a stupid thing to be worried about but Jack had worried. He wasn't so good at the talking thing, especially when it came to his feelings, and it was a lot easier and a lot more genuine to express his love and admiration in a caress down Sam's neck and shoulder or a kiss that went on so long that he saw stars.

She was over in her "office" again and Jack rapped lightly at the door frame, giving her what he hoped was a charming grin.

"You busy, Sam?"

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Sam had just closed her laptop when he knocked on the door. "No," she answered. "I was just about to come back, actually." Even though she thought things were mostly okay between them, she'd been spending a lot of time by herself, just thinking. She didn't want Jack to think she was avoiding him, because she wasn't, necessarily, not anymore.

"Meteor shower outside," Jack said, hooking a thumb in that general direction. "Thought maybe we could go lay out there and watch it for a little while?"

And talk, but he didn't add that part aloud.

"Really?" That was something she hadn't seen since she was there. She always loved meteor showers. "Right now?" She'd kicked off her shoes while she was working, and she felt around under the chair for them and put them on.

Jack nodded. "Yeah. Makes sense. If we were back home, the Leonids would be full swing right now."

He'd always been kind of a nerd when it came to astronomy, if nothing else.

"Thought you'd never forgive me if I didn't tell you about it and let you work straight through."

"I'm glad you did," she said, and gathered up a couple of blankets they could sit on while they watched the shower. "Where's the best place to see them, you think?"

Even though she didn't really need an excuse to spend time with Jack, she was glad the meteor shower kind of gave her one; she knew she'd been distant ever since she found out she was pregnant, and she didn't want Jack to think she was having second thoughts about him even though she still wasn't happy about recent developments.

"Probably down the beach closer to Susan's, away from where most of the people would be."

Jack loved people and most of the people on the island were friendly and easygoing, just his kind, but he sort of wanted the opportunity to be alone with Sam. It didn't happen as often as he wanted.

"Sounds good." She shut the door behind her to keep out the menagerie--cat, dog, and wolf, not that there was any danger of the turtles getting in there--since she had her wedding dress hanging in the corner, covered up to keep Jack from accidentally seeing it.

It was a good walk from New Atlantis to the northern beach. Sam had the blankets folded under one arm, and after a little while, she reached out her free hand to take Jack's while they walked.

"So how are...things?"

Jack had never really been very good at being subtle and usually, well, it was kind of a good thing. He'd always been blunt and to the point and he (thought) it made him a good leader. Not necessarily a good thing in his personal life though.

"You know. Things."

Damn. He was bad at this.

Yeah, he was pretty bad at it, but Sam didn't mind very much. It was just one of the things about him that made him Jack. "Okay, I guess," she said. "I feel okay...not getting sick or anything yet." It was still really early, so that didn't mean anything, but Sam was kind of glad not to be sick.

"It's gonna be okay," Jack promised, low and mostly to himself. "You know I'm going to wait on you hand and foot and I'm really looking forward to actually getting to be there this time. But that's all I'll talk about it if you'd rather not think about it right this second."

"It's okay." They walked along a little more while Sam tried to work out a way to say what she was thinking. "You don't have to... I mean, I'm not sick, just pregnant. You don't have to, you know, do anything different."

Sam was used to considering herself pretty strong and capable. And there was something about the state of being pregnant that made her feel weak, and she didn't like that.

"I just thought it might help. That was pretty silly, considering," Jack said, shrugging. "I know you're strong, Sam. I am not putting you in the corner or anything but...it's not in me to not dote on the mother of my child, you know?"

"I know. I didn't mean it like that." Sam was quiet again after that. She didn't know what to say that didn't sound like she wanted to fight with him--and she didn't want to fight. She just wanted to forget about this for a while, until she could sort out her feelings about it.

By the time they reached the beach, Sam could see the meteor shower very clearly, and she stood there for a minute, watching. "This spot okay?" she asked, taking her eyes away from the shower for a minute to look at him.

"Perfect," Jack said, willing to drop it for a moment just so they could have some time that wasn't he or Sam upset, in tears or at each others' throats. There were still nine months to go and Jack wondered if it'd get any easier; this was hard when both parties weren't happy.

He busied himself with spreading out the blanket and that done, settled, tugging Sam into his arms to watch the shower.

"Love you, Carter. You know that, right?"

When Jack put his arms around her she leaned against him, partly watching the meteors and partly thinking she'd missed them being close like this. "I know," she said. "And I love you too." She snuggled up closer to him, looking up at the sky.

"I'm sorry about earlier."

"For what? Nothing to be sorry about," Jack said, kissing her hair lightly. "Besides, we've got falling balls of rock and flame to watch. All's good."

She didn't say anything for a little while, watching the sky and leaning against Jack and just enjoying the moment. This was the kind of moment that made her like this place; calm and quiet and even beautiful. "I'm glad we came up here."

"I am too," Jack said quietly, trying not to break the moment. "You know, I owe a lot to meteor showers. That's how I ended up here in the first place. Edora was...something. I think I could have liked it there, if I was stuck."

"It was a nice place," Sam said. "Friendly people, beautiful planet."

"You were there for over three months," Sam added after a minute. "We didn't think there was any way we were going to get you back inside of at least a year, but we did, and that...was the longest three months of my life."

"Did you have feelings then?" Jack asked, surprised at her reaction to that. He'd had feelings, sure, but he didn't know about Sam. She was more reserved.

"I don't remember when I first started having feelings for you," Sam said quietly. "Antarctica, I think, but maybe... maybe before that. It's hard to remember now. It's been so long, for me, that I'm at the point where I don't really remember a time I knew you that I didn't have feelings for you."

"Antarctica, for me," Jack agreed. "I should have told you how I felt after that and I just...didn't. I thought maybe if I ignored it that it'd go away. I didn't ever want you to think that you were coerced or threatened. I respect you so much, Sam. You have no idea."

She leaned her head back against his shoulder and sighed. "I never felt that way, Jack," she said. "I never felt like my position was in jeopardy, I never felt threatened. You were my CO, yes, but you were also my friend."

"Best friend," Jack corrected quietly, smoothing a loose piece of hair back behind her ear. "You make me a better man, Sam. I can't ask for any more than that."

"Best friend," Sam agreed. They sat there in silence for a while, watching the meteors light up the steadily-darkening sky, and then Sam shifted a little so that she was almost facing him.

"Jack," she said softly, and then her voice caught. She found it so hard to talk to him lately, either because she thought she would start an argument or because she just didn't know what to say.

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